Friday, June 13, 2008,
Well, i guess my parents & friends thought that im coping very well with my studies & work. They thought i can balance everything. I'm not wonder woman.
Honestly its really very tiring for you to work in the day & study at night.
I always fell asleep in the middle of the lesson.
Today is worst, I slept thru out the whole lesson. I thought im the only one who is like that.
I turn around & see, many of them fell asleep too. Lecture theatre too comfortable. Lol
Even though im not working very hard in the day.
But i still do feel very sleepy at night.
I do have homework, project & presentations.
But everyday when im home, im too tired to even do my homework.
Stress, you know?
One day i'll mentally break down.
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I'm bored, real bored. So lonely.
Bf is still working i guess. Weekends he'll be working also.
Im still wondering how should i spend this weekend alone.
Obviously being Ms Independent again.
Now i understand & know how's the feeling of being neglected.
I used to neglect my loved ones because of money; work.
The feeling scuks. It really sucks. You cant even be angry nor upset.
Obviously you wont be happy too. Crazy.
So now, i understand. Although money is impt. But loved ones are more impt.
Qian mei you le hai ke yi zai zuan. Ren mei you le, jiu zai ye zhao bu hui lai.Im really too tired to continue. Sigh.
Gooood nights!
Tuesday, June 03, 2008,
I finally able to calm myself down, & now my bro come back to spoil it.
I was fcuking unhappy in the first place before im reach my door step.
& Very well done, everyone was out. I've no keys to enter. FINE.
Sorry, im different many other girls.
When im pissed off, you better back off. Or let me whin all i want.
I know i can whin for very long, but just let me do it.
I cant pretend that things had never happened before.
Oh yes, i did something funny just now just to vent my anger.
I like to do that a lot whenever im angry.
It is.. Go into the lift to yell, scream, shout out loud.
Of course when no one is inside.
I'll feel very much better after that. Thats how i vent my anger.
I dont like to hurt myself by punching the walls and things like that. =.=
Im going to be deity soon. My gums hurts.
I dont feel like eating, but im hungry. :(
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Your PMS Disaster Level: EXTREME! |
You're PMS is horrific and totally freaky.
You should be locked away once a month... with a ton of chocolate cake! |
You Are An ISTJ |
The Duty Fulfiller
You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.
You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.
Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.
Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy.
In love, you are loyal and honest. If you commit yourself to someone, then you're fully committed.
For you, love is something that happens naturally. And you don't need romantic gestures to feel loved.
At work, you remember details well and are happy to take on any responsibility.
You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.
How you see yourself: Decisive, stable, and dependable
When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, conservative, and egotistical |