Tuesday, December 12, 2006,
edited twice*
this gonna be a very very long entry .
i know my blog is getting really boring .
& most likely to be dead .
reading all my complaints ..
sigh, everyday i'm living my life meaningless-ly larh .
i'm wondering how long can i still carry on?
i'm just having some mental prob, seriously .
mentally broke down .
i am so afraid of falling in love again
getting into another relationship is a big risk .
thanks people for your concerns .
but don't ask me to cheer up, don't be sad .
i don't wanna listen to all these .
there's no way that i can cheer myself up .
no offence, i know you people are showing your concern .
i really don't know how to carry on like this,
this kinda life really SUCKS .
don't tell me all i need is time also .
although time can help me to heal the pain
but it can't erase the scar inside my heart .
it will be always there, forever there .
don't ask me to let go, i can't do it .
don't ask me to forget,
memories will be there forever .
unless you kill my brain,
forcing myself to put on a fake smile everyday .
i really hope that i can smile like before .
NO, TIME WONT DO ANYTHING .
TIME WONT ERASE THE SCAR .
NOTHING CAN DO IT .
i just feel like giving up so many times
i just can't take it anymore .
kill me, stab me straight into my heart pls .
don't tell me you understand how i feel
unless you were me going through all these .
i've never been hurted so badly before!
nobody understand how i feel,
not even you .
what am i going through?
why must i go through all these?
once bitten, twice shy .
one time is enough .
i don't need another person to hurt me .
but i still need you back
to mend the broken pieces of my broken heart .
what's heaven's will?
what's love?
what's fate?
come back to me, baby .
the scar can be only be erase by you .
stop my heart from bleeding .
it's still bleeding..
how fake is my smile?
innocent look . =.=
13th Dec 2006, Wednesday
today went sentosa with him .
i had a great day out with him, really .
i hasn't been smiling & laughing so happily after he left
until today i'm really happy although it's just for afew hours .
but i was kinda down when i know he's leaving Sg .
sigh, why are all these happening to me?
can all these stop happening to me?
i'm so afraid of getting result myself; alone .
i hope he will be there with me .
i really had enough & scarred of all these .
actually i am very lucky to have him,
but i only realise it by now .
it's all too late .
he's the best, he's all i need .
he's the one i loved most .
MY X'MAS WISHES ,
- he's return; our 9th month on x'mas
- a ring of mine engraved "baby"
Spell my name, Sandy
Little description:
SANDY CHEW
Someone who always wants the last word. Dislikes noise and chaos. Hard to please. Always the one who is being seriously realistic in anything. She would even want full perfection in everything she do, a perfectionist. Indelible nostalgias are always on her mind. Independent Lady.
sandyc.90@hotmail.com
Interests/Loves:
Girlfriends, Shopping, Cam-whoring, Nightlife, Pool-ing, Party, Cosmetic,
K-ing & Gossiping .
My Beloved Ones:
ChinBoon . CheeSeng . Donald . JinTing . Kunbeng . Lilian . MeiHong . MingFei . Qimin. ShuMian . WeiPeng . Vyvian . WeiYee . Yixi .
* my beloved 4A ' 2oo6
* my lovely IOF ' 2oo7
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Nostalgias
WISHLIST.
Ralph Lauren Bag Gucci handbag Burberry handbag 4A class gathering Perm eyelashes Gucci cardholder Class 3 license Anges B. Wallet Get a Diploma Get a Degree Slim down Wonderful 18th Sky Ride @ SentosaADVERTISMENTS
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* CheeYen
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* Ice
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* Jason
* Jayden
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* Junqi
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♥ Mingfei
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* Peggy
* Pei Rong
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* Jayden
* Sandy
* Shanling
* Shanshan
* Sheena
* Siman
* Sofia
* Suliani
♥ Shu Mian
* Siew Chuen
* Sylvia
* Teri
* Vivian
* Vyvian
♥ Weipeng
* Weiling
* Weiyee
* Winnie
* XiaoSi
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