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Thursday, December 28, 2006,

stupidly i got into office skill . f*ck
tmd . i never choose that bloody course lars .
they rejected all my course !
i just don't know why they put me in office skill .
mel say, might be my EOA is my best subject .
so they offer me, office skill @ bishan .
what the helllllll .

i was so chong dong in the morning .
i went to appeal for tourism . LOL
& now i already accepted their offer .
i don't wanna waste my time to appeal .
i decided to accept that stupid offer .
& i planned properly for my future . :D

i also have accompany ,
lilian, vyvian, siew feng & yueting darlink .
all same course & campus with me . xD

i'll just ignore the appeal .
8th gonna start school .
just left 1week plus to start school . =[
new school, new classmates .


Take a leap of faith.
@ 6:53 PM




Tuesday, December 26, 2006,

let me rest in peace man .
let me recall abt past few days .
i rmb that i went out with mingfei to watch movie .
it was a last min plan . lol
night at the museum, really very funny .

okays and the for the next day
was my cousin wedding dinner .


me & shermin



jueyuen & i


huizhen & i



me, jueyuen & shermin



we're the closest cousins .

& 24th Xmas eve .
went town to meet shengyang around 5plus .
for dinner? but i didnt eat any . lol
& went to get mh's present .
after went home . LOL!
9pm i went out to town again .
saw many many ppl .
& waited for ting & her colleague to come .
we countdown & went back .

today went to meet lilian .
& went dont.know.how.spell. that place .
to settle some *** thing .
& went for lunch cum high tea .
there's something wrong with me so seriously .
arghs . don't what happened to my appetite lor .
had gastri[isnt spell tis way?] & felt like vomiting for hours .
then we went ps & heeren , walk around .


i know i very zilian . LOL


my finger was hurted by the umbrella!
open & close until like that . =[



my master piece , lilian's hp .


REPLY TAGS .

ELAINE: hahas . yeah, hope i can get into that course .

:): $18, i had replied the tag on my shop blog .

WINSTON: thankyou! you too . (:

GERALDINE: okays! hahas ~

UNKNOWN: huh!? lol, thanks . hu are you? u saw mie in real lyfe before?


Take a leap of faith.
@ 10:58 PM




Thursday, December 21, 2006,

finally i get some peace to blog . (:
i'm learning how to let go .
no point waiting, when there's no return .

all i need is someone who can melt my heart
& not break my heart .
but it's not easy to melt my heart,
i don't know why .

actually i really lost my appetite .
thats why i mention before that i had lost weight .
i lost abt 3kg? now i'm 40kg . how nice .
everyday was just half a meal per day .
& it last abt 2weeks, also lacked of water .
after every meal i'll feel like vomiting .
whenever i see food will just turn me off .
not i tried to starve myself .
but i just don't feel like eating .

but for now it's getting betta .
i started to eat 2 meals per day .
i used to eat a lot .
thanks to the big break down,
make me lost weight .

back to what i should blog . lol
last 2days went out with my darlinks .
went shopping ~

yesterday actually we should go K-lunch @ cine .
but mian suddenly not feeling well .
so we slack-ed @ cine's toilet for about 1hour?
she was vomiting . so we can't do anything but to wait .

i was really bo liao to stand on the toilet bowl to pose .



that poor girl vomiting



mh sitting on the toilet bowl playing with the toilet paper . LOL





so we took a cab back to sengkang .
@ mian's house K-ing . LOL
we sing sang sung for hoursss .
we were so high .

went back around 9plus .
at night i was still veryyy high .
met many siao lang & cockster . lol !
mian & i laugh-ed the whole night .
xihong & weiyee cock-ing to me last night .
i ji siao xihong to ask him out .
& in the end he was serious . =.=

sms-ed with shu dong for the night .
i was half awake . till 5plus in the morning .
i don't know what the hell did i say . lol

anyone wanna ask me out on xmas eve?
i gonna spend my xmas alone . =[
buy me xmas present!


Take a leap of faith.
@ 8:34 PM




Monday, December 18, 2006,

got back my result . =DD
where's my reward ? LOL!
yeah, i failed maths & science . =/
is a confirm & standard .

i failed the impt subject . damn~
i can't get into multimedia!
nvm, my first choice TOURISM .
others will be product design, digital media design .
AIYA, i'm so confused also lar!

i list all here ..
don't ask me what course i wanna go again pls .
everyone is asking the same question .
& which campus i wanna go
depends on course .

my result is hai guo de qu . lol~
just confused with the courses .

after i took my result everyone call me,
lucky my result hao guo de qu .
if not how am i going to tell them .
i wanna apply for my course now! NOW!

BUY ME X'MAS PRESENT, ANYONE?
LOOK OUT FOR MY WISHLIST!!!!

pictures:

with make-up


w/o makeup

my last time wearing CVSS unifrom . lol~


Take a leap of faith.
@ 9:48 PM




Sunday, December 17, 2006,

hopefully i'm 'quite' fine now ..
i lost weight, quite happy .
i lost all my confidence too . (:
tomorrow i'll be dead yeah .
N level result will be out tml !
hell for me .

i lost all my confidence in everything, i mean . (:

i stayed at home for the whole day
by rotting myself in front of the PC .
happily rotting eh .
my mood swing up & down .
kept bullshit-ing with people .
i mean, crapping - rubbish-ing .

anyone wanna make me happy?
LOOK AT MY WISHING LIT THEN .
esp below [4a class gathering]
after that class gathering wish,
below thats what i wanted for x'mas .
& also of course the 1st one . (:


Take a leap of faith.
@ 11:30 PM




Friday, December 15, 2006,

i kept all our memories in a disc ..
get it from me if you want it .


Take a leap of faith.
@ 1:55 PM




Tuesday, December 12, 2006,

edited twice*
this gonna be a very very long entry .
i know my blog is getting really boring .
& most likely to be dead .

reading all my complaints ..



sigh, everyday i'm living my life meaningless-ly larh .
i'm wondering how long can i still carry on?
i'm just having some mental prob, seriously .
mentally broke down .

i am so afraid of falling in love again
getting into another relationship is a big risk .

thanks people for your concerns .
but don't ask me to cheer up, don't be sad .
i don't wanna listen to all these .
there's no way that i can cheer myself up .
no offence, i know you people are showing your concern .

i really don't know how to carry on like this,
this kinda life really SUCKS .
don't tell me all i need is time also .
although time can help me to heal the pain
but it can't erase the scar inside my heart .
it will be always there, forever there .

don't ask me to let go, i can't do it .
don't ask me to forget,
memories will be there forever .
unless you kill my brain,

forcing myself to put on a fake smile everyday .
i really hope that i can smile like before .
NO, TIME WONT DO ANYTHING .
TIME WONT ERASE THE SCAR .
NOTHING CAN DO IT .

i just feel like giving up so many times
i just can't take it anymore .
kill me, stab me straight into my heart pls .

don't tell me you understand how i feel
unless you were me going through all these .
i've never been hurted so badly before!
nobody understand how i feel,
not even you .

what am i going through?
why must i go through all these?

once bitten, twice shy .
one time is enough .
i don't need another person to hurt me .

but i still need you back
to mend the broken pieces of my broken heart .

what's heaven's will?
what's love?
what's fate?

come back to me, baby .
the scar can be only be erase by you .
stop my heart from bleeding .
it's still bleeding..



how fake is my smile?


innocent look . =.=


13th Dec 2006, Wednesday

today went sentosa with him .
i had a great day out with him, really .
i hasn't been smiling & laughing so happily after he left
until today i'm really happy although it's just for afew hours .
but i was kinda down when i know he's leaving Sg .
sigh, why are all these happening to me?
can all these stop happening to me?
i'm so afraid of getting result myself; alone .
i hope he will be there with me .
i really had enough & scarred of all these .
actually i am very lucky to have him,
but i only realise it by now .
it's all too late .

he's the best, he's all i need .
he's the one i loved most .

MY X'MAS WISHES ,
- he's return; our 9th month on x'mas
- a ring of mine engraved "baby"


Take a leap of faith.
@ 11:24 PM




Monday, December 11, 2006,

1.Longest relationship: 8months plus

2.Shortest relationship: 1day i tink?

3.Have you ever thought that you were going to marry someone? : yeah, gone .

4.Have you ever loved someone so muchthat it hurt?: the pain is unbearable .

5. Have you ever made a boyfriend orgirlfriend cry?: probably i did .

6.Are you happier single or in a relationship? : i'll be happier with him .

7.Have you ever been cheated on?: yeah

8.Have you ever had your heart broken?: yesh

9.Have you ever broken someone's heart?: probably

10.Talk to any of your exes?: yeah, i really misses him lots

11.If you could go back in time andchange things to where you could stillbe with one of your exes, would you?: yesh, i will .

12.Think any of your exes feel the sameway? : i don't tink so

13.Do you believe that you are good? : =.=

14.Have you dated people who were notgood to you?: =.=

15.Have you been in an abusive relationship? : ..

16.Have you dated someone older thanyou?: ..

17.Younger? : arghs

18.Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?: depends

19.Do you believe in Love at first sight? : yeah

20.Ever dated two people at once?: no

21. Ever been given an Engagement ring? : i hope so!

22.Do you want to get married?: yesh, asap . =.=

23.Do you have something to say to any ofyour exes?: 1, alot to say

24.Ever stolen someone's boyfriend or girlfriend?: siao

25. Ever liked someone else's boyfriend orgirlfriend?: no

26. Does heartbreak really feel as bad asit sounds? : its unbearable, SOMEONE NOE PLS .


Take a leap of faith.
@ 8:43 AM




Sunday, December 10, 2006,

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?


the part that talks about marriage not true to me .
i wanna get marry now!
& i don't feel like flirting around and playing right now .
just let me be in peace ..


You Are An ISFJ
The Nurturer
You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.
You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

quite true . (:


Your Japanese Name Is...
Emiko Shimizudani



You Are 85% Ready for Marriage
This doesn't mean you should rush out and get married... But if you did tie the knot, it would probably work out great!
Are You Ready for Marriage?



Your Love Life Secrets Are
Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?
You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.
In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so.
Break-ups can be painful for you, but you never show it. You hold your head high.
Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed


Take a leap of faith.
@ 1:54 PM




,

kept feeling un-normal . damn . =.=
i'm finally not that *** anymore .
but i still don't have the mood to blog .
no mood for everything anyway ..

baby, i miss you .
i'm still waiting ..


Take a leap of faith.
@ 11:52 AM




Sunday, December 03, 2006,

i'm waiting for your return, baby .

我不要你的呵护你的玫瑰
只要你好好久久爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好贪心也好
哪个女人对爱不自私不奢望


我不要你的承诺不要你的永远
只要你真真切切爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好贪心也好
最怕你把沉默
当做对我的回答

原来你什么都不想要


everyday i only have less than 5 hrs of sleep . wth~
i always sleep in the morning 5plus .
nothing to blog much larhs~


Take a leap of faith.
@ 12:22 PM




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Someone who always wants the last word. Dislikes noise and chaos. Hard to please. Always the one who is being seriously realistic in anything. She would even want full perfection in everything she do, a perfectionist. Indelible nostalgias are always on her mind. Independent Lady.

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ChinBoon . CheeSeng . Donald . JinTing . Kunbeng . Lilian . MeiHong . MingFei . Qimin. ShuMian . WeiPeng . Vyvian . WeiYee . Yixi .
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* my lovely IOF ' 2oo7

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