Sunday, October 14, 2007,
I AM NOT OKAY LAH. IM SERIOUSLY NOT OKAY.
IM GOING TO BREAKDOWN AGAIN, ANYTIME!
I MADE MY MISTAKE, & IM GOING TO PAY A
HIGH PRICE FOR IT .
WHY ARE ALL THESE REPEATING IN MY LIFE?!
LIFE IS SO DAMN
DRAMATIC, ITS FULL OF
LIES &
UNFAIR-NESS .
WHEN YOU WALK AWAY, I COUNT THE STEPS TAT YOU TAKE,
CAN YOU SEE HOW MUCH I NEED YOU NOW?
I AM PLAYING THE
ROLE YOU USED TO PLAY NOW .
CAN SOMEONE WAKE MY MIND UP?!
GET ME BACK TO REALITY PLEASE .
WHAT THE FCUK IS WRONG WITH MEEEEEEEEEEEEE .
I FELT LIKE
CUTTING MYSELF AGAIN WHEN I KNOW I'M FEAR OF IT WHENEVER I SAW THAT BLOODY SCAR OF THE BLOODY FCUKING PAST I USED TO HAVE!
CRYING REPEATLY, GOT WHAT USE?
I'VE ALREADY TOLD MYSELF, I NEED TO GET THINGS OVER .
IT'S NOT END OF THE WORLD . IM NOT GOING TO DIE .
THEN WHAT'S THE FCUK IS WRONG LAAAAAAAAAAA .
IF I DONT GET THIS PROB OUT OF MY MIND & HEART, IT'S GOING AFFECT MY STUDIES, ATTIUDE & WORK .
I KNOW HOW TO SAY PPL, WHEN I DONT EVEN KNOW TO SAY MYSELF .
DISCRIMINITING CAN'T WORK, THEN WHAT THE FCUK CAN IT WORK .
COUNSELLING? COUNSULT A PSYCHOLOGIST? I HOPE SO .
SELF HYPNOSIS IS GOING TO HELP ? OR SELF PSYCHOLOGY?
I AM SICK OF THIS LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE .
MY MIND IS FULL OF "WHY WHY WHY" ! CAN YOU JUST ANS ME WHY?????
WHY LAAAAAAAA . WHY MUST IT BE ONE
ME?????
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .
I'VE ENOUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .